"Inside everybody's hiding something"
Those lyrics below express exactly how I feel at the moment and if I recall them it
helps me get over my current state of mind. I try time and again not to slide...
Depression is like that I guess. The turmoil in my mind is like a constant battle
between two opponents: the guilty which makes me relive my mistakes time and
again in a vicious circle of rememberence; the optomist which makes me look to
the future, put the mistakes behind me and move on. Easier to express in words
than think about. I need to keep active in order to be free. Alone I just dwell on my
thoughts too much. I have to learn to forgive myself but it's just the anger I feel at
having let myself down. The values I once held dear disappeared in a night of
madness. Of course it's going to take time to get over and nearing the date
when my life was turned upside down a year ago makes it all the more poignant.

Slide

Even on a day like this when you're crawling on the floor
Reaching for the 'phone to ring anyone who knows you anymore
It's all right to make mistakes, you're only human
Inside everybody's hiding something
Staring at the same four walls, have you tried to help yourself
The rings around your eyes they don't hide, that you need to get some rest
It's all right to make mistakes you're only human
Inside everybody's hiding something
Take time to catch your breath and choose your moment
Don't slide
Even at a time like this when the morning seems so far
Think that pain belongs to you but it's happened to us all
It's all right to make mistakes you're only human
Inside everybody's hiding something
Take time to catch your breath and choose your moment
Don't slide
You bought this on yourself and it's high time you left it there
Lie here and rest your head and dream of something else instead
Don't slide.

Lyrics by Dido. Taken from the Album No Angel.